Dawning Creations

This is why Iamx is my favorite band. “Sorrow, you are my light. everything my heart desires. show me your beautiful anger. sorrow, keeping me sane. you turn my night into day. I love your beautiful anger.” ~Iamx- Sorrow http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Sorrow-lyrics-Iamx/F7714B0B3D68C53448257B3A0006020C

As of late, this song, not much more than the others on the new album has really touched me. With everything that has been going on in my life, I realize that I have known the answer to my problems all along. This song sums it up. For me, my sorrows have led me to create some of my greatest poetry and revealed to me my incredible ability to endure. It also enlightened me to post traumatic growth- http://www.posttraumaticgrowth.com/what-is-ptg/ 

in which I also display 🙂 . 

Life is full of ups and downs.. It’s a corny saying but it’s true. I’ve come to see that my life will NEVER be easy. I will have to work hard to achieve what I want and to become the person I want to be. But, as GOD as my witness, I will get there. I have a broken heart and many worries. My heart is heavy and my eyes are dripping with tears but that’s just fine. I welcome the pain because I know that this pain will not be forever. Loss of a family member never quite leaves you. Then again, neither do the memories. I have plenty to keep me company as well as the conversations with those close to me to remind me of what’s good all around me. There is so much beauty in every corner, shaded grassy area, busy city, and quiet retreat. I am searching for it every day and finding it little by little in others. I have made some great friends over the years. Through them, I am realizing the good and the not so good within in. The positive thing about this is that it’s ultimate self-knowledge. We find ourselves through others. After we know ourselves, we have to ability to literally rewire our brains. Psychology is a magnificent science in that aspect. I have just written a poem that involved a little ranting but also offers hope for others that may be burdened with the same issue in their lives. Where ever you are, listen to me. You may feel lost, abandoned, angry, and hurt. But please trust me when I say this. YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!” If I could post my life story to help one person I would. Trouble is, I’m still writing it.”~Me I’m changing every day and for the better. I trust in my creator, my friends, family, and myself more than ever. “Metamorphosis is something to embrace. Nature does. SO WHY CAN’T WE??”~Me

Forsaken:

 

An open heart is a broken heart in a world that is lacking trust and love.

I gave my all for the first time in my life and got my all handed back to me with a wretched, holey bag wreaking of lies and apologies.

The trouble with this is the lack of knowledge about it.

Were your intentions wanton or benign?

I’ll never know.

I’ll never begin to belittle my pride to question your lie.

It isn’t worth it to me.

Castigating and haunting my brain, I’ll not spend an eternity wasted.

I’ll not give up on myself as you have yourself.

Your faith in the world has left you cold.

You’re am empty soul with no true desire and I pity your oppressors and even more so your companions.

For surely they have not seen what I have seen.

I’m positive in my beliefs that you are sick.

But it doesn’t matter what I think

because you never loved me.

You promised you’d never hurt me.

As superfluous and redundant as it sounds, I believed you.

All those times you held me and took me away,

all to get what you wanted.

Once you have it, there was nothing left for you to take.

Only, I will not hurt forever.

You will be the one to suffer and for that I am sorry.

Even though you hurt me, I do not wish to see your immolation.

My only wish is for you to learn from your mistakes and learn to be more genuine.

Someday I will fully forgive you.

You will never see this.

You will never get the satisfaction of knowing I hurt at all.