Dawning Creations

There’s nothing ugly about being good.
There’s nothing wrong with love without immediate sex.
There’s something graceful about God and patience.
To give it all and let it all go seems
to be too much at this time.
What feels so right in an instant
changes with some seriously pondering.
Romance, passion, and lust lead you away from your goal when overused and abused.
I pray for the strength to resist
my pangs.
I want to love you.
I need to love you
I do love you and there are other ways to express that love.
I just don’t know how.
I’ve never known such a strong desire alongside with caring and loving so deeply.
It’s alarming on my part to see the changes in me.
I can see the monster inside, devouring my innocence,
 my truth,my creativity, and compassion, and replacing it
with obsession and vicious and uncaring pining.
This is the antithesis of what I want.
Sometimes it takes time to make you see where you’re failing.
I failed you once before and I won’t allow for it again.
I love what we have in our little world,
kept secret and disclosed from everyone else.
We escape on mountain tops and far from all else.
I mourned for your loss when you cast me aside.
Yet, I understood the difficulty in loving me.
No low self esteem; this is not avoidance, just me working on me.
Patience can create beauty if we let it.
How can I make you see without it making you feel inadequate or unwanted?
My passions emanate off of me.
The vibrations reverberating off of my skin and onto yours.
Freezing water and heart shaped
prints on windshields, are something we can wait for and in good time.
It’ll be brought back from the dead.

Our seclusion and trust will be rebuilt and your patience in me is beautiful.
Your trust is compassion towards my dissipating distrust.
You’re reminding me what I’ve lost when you were gone slowly and quickly simultaneously.
These are the words that my cowardice forces me to keep in.

To express words eloquently in speech just never can easily be expressed.
To write to you is the best that I can do.
I love you.
I want to keep you and keep our everything.
I want to be with you all of the time
and then run when you are too near.
It’ll end soon, my fears.
And we’ll we back and happy.
Relaxation and nervousness tossed aside like rubbish.
It’ll be the same only better.
And I have you to thank and our holy father who has never steered us wrong.
If we remain untied in each other and god, well get through all that’s wrong in our lives.
We can support each other as we have always done.
Our hands intertwined and backs erect as we fight together for one another.
There will be no blood shed on this battlefield.
We will have this mastered all in good time and all that tries to beat us down.
It’s so simple to fall in love with your mind.
You’re beautiful.
You’re brilliant and your caring is breaking through.