Dawning Creations

It was two years ago that I let you down greatly.
You tried to forgive me
but eventually you gave up.
I tried to make it up to you.
I tried to be friends but it was too much and the friendship ended.
You’ve taught me a great deal about life and showed me I was strong.
You’ve held me as I sobbed uncontrollably, when you needed comfort that I couldn’t give you.
You showed such kindness and knew that I never meant to do you wrong.
I couldn’t help what I was feeling and I truly believed that it was so.
I’m sorry that I hurt you.
I’m sorry that I let you down.
But I did try my best in the end and you said goodbye for the last time.
I’m not angry or bitter.
I’m also not living in the past.
I realize that I wasn’t perfect and I’ll never be perfect.
But I won’t beat myself up anymore.
I’ve lost good friends before.
I forgive myself, even if you don’t forgive me.
I love myself, even if you wish the worst for me.
I have changed, even though you may not believe it.
I give myself credit and I no longer need anyone’s approval.
I am free from the burden of fearing rejection.
I am cast away from the sorrows of regret and guilt.
I have made mistakes but I won’t let them control my mind and poison me any longer.
I deserve to be happy.
I deserve this newfound freedom.
I have hurt people but not on purpose.
No matter what we do in life, we will hurt others.
It’s inevitable and we can’t please everyone.
I know where my heart stands and I am no longer broken.
I am a child of GOD.
I will not be defeated by the demons of my past.
We’re all deserving of something better.
Some of us just take longer to know that we’re worth love and goodness in our lives.
As for me, it’s taken me time to realize my inner beauty and strength.
Now that I’ve found it, I pray to never lose myself again.
I pray more for you, though.
I want for you to have happiness.
Whatever anger you hold in your heart, let it go.
Good things will come to you if just let yourself receive them.
You may not understand that as of now and may be blaming others or yourself.
Remember, there’s always a chance to start over.
Your past doesn’t have to define you.
Your life can be as undefined as you will it to be.
Don’t let the moon control you as it controls the tides.
Flow which ever way you wish and the rest will be up to you and only you.
As you once were able to forgive me,
I forgive you too.