Dawning Creations

There’s no answering machine plugged in.
I cut the cords, snipped the telephone lines.
All I’m trying to do is let you go.
I want to have you in my
life but it can’t stay the way it is now.
I can’t keep ignoring that you refuse to meet me halfway in all situations and combat my positivity with your incessant flow of excuses.
The static on the other line,
your being oblivious is too much to take.
I’m sure you think I’m just a fool,
some simple little girl to amuse you when you need some reassurance in regards to your sanity and the things you say, do, and think.
All I do for you is give my all and stay completely honest.
Half of the time, you don’t want to listen or hear me.
The other half of time, you’re caring and apologetic towards me.
Every time I turn around something in you changes and jigsaw puzzle adds one hundred more pieces.
I’m tired of apologizing for the way I’m feeling.
It’s due to the things you do, say, and think that I’ve lost all interest in trying.
You’re unpredictable and not in a way I like anymore.
I don’t know who you are anymore.
I have to put an end to this guessing game, these constant mood swings and back and forth empty apologies between you and I.
I have to give up solving the puzzle you left before me because if I don’t,
I’m afraid that I’ll come to the frightful realization that I never knew who you were from the beginning….