Dawning Creations

I’ve seen the light,
in your eyes, in every one of you.
You don’t know me yet.
You soon will.

Regret me not,
wisdom that consumes me.
You’ve set me alight.
I’m warming with you,
cold in the middle of the day.

You still don’t know me?

I’m every tear, every cry, every laugh and I.
I cannot wallow in missing you.
I treasure the memories,
your gifts you’ve bestowed.

I was undeserving.
I was gone, leaving behind a molding of myself.
On autopilot, I couldn’t relate, couldn’t reach out.

The light was blown away for way too long, promises unmet, words left, hung up hanging mutely.

Time has healed.

I have grown but sadly without you.

I’m back and reaching out with heartfelt meaning.
Friendship that tested time, tested the wicked craft of life and her ups and downs.
Written letters spoke moments of praise and apology to you for the times I neglected our bond.

You still don’t know me?

The face of the forgotten friend, the one that almost has forgotten you.

Now, I’m every tear, every cry, every laugh and I.
I cannot wallow in missing you.
I’ll treasure the memories,
your gifts you’ve bestowed.
I would rather still know you.You’ve sealed the deal and cut me off.

Do you recognize me yet?

About the poem: I don’t always explain my poems because I like them to mean something to you my readers without my intent being imposed upon you. Sometimes, however, with certain poems that came directly from a personal situation, I feel that explaining could help someone who possibly is or was going through something similar.

I wrote this poem about a close friend of mine. We went through good and bad times, sticking by and supporting one another. The last few months have changed drastically and I can barely get a hold of her. I understand people get busy and forget plans and forget to respond. When it happens multiple times though, one begins to worry- ME- I worry. I wrote her messages explaining my worries and apologized for some of my less than great friendship moments and she reassured me that all was fine. I wrote this while -worrying- to help get the jumbled thoughts out of my head and to prevent me from serial anxiety texting/ calling her. It worked and I was able to text her calmly and express my worries in a not panicked way as mentioned earlier.

Message to take away: When you have great friends, never take them for granted. You never want to realize what you have only when they’re gone. No matter what you’re going through, don’t push people away and don’t shut yourself down. It took me years to realize I deserved the good people in my life. I’m grateful for them and their patience every day.