Dawning Creations

I have learned a lot in my 21 years of life. I know for a fact that all of my lessons learned were due to help and examples of other people. Throughout my life, I have met a lot of brilliant, kind and wise people that have taught and helped with me many things.
Life can be tricky and cruel sometimes. Sometimes we feel alone and anxious, as if our lives are passing us by. It’s then that I think we need to realize what we’re missing and find it soon.

What I was missing in my life, was people. I wanted companionship and closeness. It’s not as if I had never had it. I have always been close with my family -but now, we are even closer since I am older. I just wanted that closeness with other people at my new college. When I first came to college, I felt like an outcast. I made a few friends but still I felt unimportant and ignored. It wasn’t until my second semester at college that things picked up. By that time, I was really depressed because my friend Jordan had moved to Boston, my friend Tiffany was constantly working and I really needed money. Don’t get me wrong, not everything was bad. My dad and I had gotten closer, finally. Also, I was doing really well in all of my classes. I was just really stressed about the “money situation” and other personal things. It wasn’t until that fateful day that I stepped into the tutoring center to receive tutoring by a woman named, Mrs. Raj that I found what I was looking for. Mrs. Raj, is a very wise and affable character that I met when I was getting tutored for intermediate algebra. I am not afraid to admit that math is not my strong point.. NO, really… it isn’t… I couldn’t even do simple math when my friend Tiff and I went through the driving section at my bank. I had to fill out a deposit slip and I couldn’t do the mental math… so yeah… It’s pretty bad.. Anyway, back on topic. As she was tutoring me, she noticed that I was a little troubled by something. So, being the straight forward woman she is, she asked me what was bothering me. I spent a good half hour explaining my situation. Basically, I explained to her how I need a job and how things have been a little stressful. To my surprise, telling her that, ended up being a blessing in disguise. After I got done venting, she asked me bluntly what I am good at, academic wise. I told her that I was good at English and writing. She walked past me without saying one word into her office. The next thing I saw was her coming back out of the office with a piece of paper. “Fill this out,” she said. “You can be a tutor.” I looked at her with disbelief clear as day on my face. ‘What?” “You can do it.” You need the money and you are smart.” I knew she was right. Plus, how would I look if I didn’t take the job after I complained to her about how rough things were? I took the paper out of her hands and thanked her. I also told her about how nervous I was about becoming a tutor. It’s not that I was afraid of people; I was just shy sometimes back then. It’s only been two years ago, but still, I have changed so much since then. When she told me about being a tutor, I was so terrified that I would screw up and get fired or that none of my tutees would like me. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to help anyone at all. The thought of screwing up horrified me. Now, two years down the road, I am a very successful tutor. Susan, my boss, recommends me to students continuously. Also, my boss and fellow friends in the tutoring center put my name in the honors luncheon so I could be rewarded for all of my hard work and help I gave to my tutees. To my surprise, i also ended up tutoring other classes such as Reading, Speech ( giving speeches, not speech therapy), psychology, sociology, ethics, philosophy and even some math!  I guess that whole situation was GOD’s way to teach me a very important lesson. Don’t let fear stop you from trying. If you don’t succeed, that’s okay. But  if you never try, you’ll never know if you could succeed. Some things may seem terrifying from far away. However, once you give something  a chance, you’ll see it’s not so scary after all. And the rewards will be great. For instance, since I have become a tutor, my self-esteem has been higher, I am more assertive, I am more confident in myself and I have a close-knit group of friends I made.  Life is full of lessons. Overcoming my fears, is a great lesson learned…