Dawning Creations

I didn’t ask for this, going home and sleeping to wake fining messages on my phone and darkness outside my window. I didn’t ask for the pain in my limbs, the tired numbness inside my brain.

I’m getting duller and duller, foggy in the brain.

Feathers ruffled, I still stick sick. You’re inconsistencies are consistent, the only constant, every minute. Balancing and juggling, I smile while feeling the heat creep in.

The loudness of these surroundings is all of a sudden too much.

I watch muted videos that make me laugh and pretend to be someone else.

I didn’t ask for this, couldn’t plan for that.

I’m still surviving it, facing all the many risks and setbacks.

I’m pushing through the fatigue.

About the poem: I don’t do these often but I wanted to touch base a little on why I wrote and posted this poem. Not too long ago, I was diagnosed with something called Fibromyalgia. As the title, Fatigue states, it makes me fatigued at times with no effort and causes aches and pains. It’s not fun but it’s workable if you’re patient with your body. I recently started taking Turmeric tablets – helps with inflammation- and they are helping with the pain a lot. I also try to make sure I get a lot of physical exercise and a lot of rest.

The physical exercise helps to keep things from becoming stiff and hurting as well as to keep my mind occupied on really sore days. Getting rest can sometimes be difficult for me as I work a full time job like most of you ha! adulting…. I learned that rest is very important, even if you do not have an autoimmune issue. Not resting enough can lead you to get sick easier as it weakens your immune system. I rest regardless if I finish things or not. Sometimes you have to put things off to give yourself a break. This used to be a very difficult concept for me to grasp and I would stress over not finishing things. However, when I started to get sick from not resting enough, I realized my body was trying to tell me to slow down. After a few years of harsh lessons, I learned to use my time more wisely but also give myself time to decompress as well. I was very surprised to experience the calm feeling I received from taking this small but large step.

I posted this to let others know that there are a lot of people going through this and might not even be aware. It’s hard but there’s ways to cope. Keep being positive and being there for each other. 🙂 and…. Keep Inspiring 🙂

ps. I hope this helped anyone who might be going through this. If anyone has any suggestions for helping to cope with this or anything regarding fatigue comment below. Your words can really help someone. 🙂