South Paw

There are days.
There are days,myself, you can’t recognize.

It’s been like this since late March.
I don’t dare to speak it into the air, fearful it’ll come back, stinging the hearing air like a boomerang.

I’m left on the right and wrong side of life lately, aiming to make these scribbles legible.
I’m doing all I could and it can’t possibly change a thing.

I’m left with my right hand, laughing at myself while I’m crying, whining at my punishment.
My hand, my tool, left.

I’m left with this right wrong hand.
I’m lucky to be ambidextrous.

Still, I can’t let go.
This pen quivering in my wavering grip.
I’m left with this constant hiccup, smarting.
I’m stuck.
I’m left with only my right and wrong hand.

17 responses to “South Paw”

Woodsy

May 26, 2020 at 10:49 am

Neither of your hands could ever be the wrong hand to those who have been allowed the privilege of seeing your soul up close.

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1. BrittnyLee
  
  May 26, 2020 at 3:38 pm
  
  Aww thank you. You haven’t seen my handwriting haha.
  
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2. Julie Woss
  
  May 27, 2020 at 2:16 am
  
  Thank you for your kind words to my little genius, and yes it’s a privilege to see her beautiful soul, shes my baby girl 😊
  
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  1. BrittnyLee
    
    May 27, 2020 at 2:42 am
    
    Aww thank you mom. 🙂 I love you ! It’s great getting to share this passion together again.
    
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  2. Julie Woss
    
    May 27, 2020 at 3:25 am
    
    Yes it is!
    
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PoojaG

May 27, 2020 at 1:13 am

Amazing post! I’ve nominated you for the 10 Favourite Feelings tag and it would be awesome if you try it out! No pressure of course. https://lifesfinewhine.com/2020/05/27/10-of-my-favourite-feelings-tag/

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1. BrittnyLee
  
  May 27, 2020 at 1:21 am
  
  Aw thank you so much !!!! I’d love to try it. Thank you 🙂 I’m honored. Thank you Pooja!!
  
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  1. PoojaG
    
    May 27, 2020 at 4:53 am
    
    You’re very welcome and I can’t wait to read your 10 feelings!
    
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  2. BrittnyLee
    
    May 27, 2020 at 5:41 am
    
    Thank you so much !! Just finished posting 🙂
    
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  3. PoojaG
    
    May 27, 2020 at 6:21 am
    
    Woohoo I’ll go check it out!
    
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  4. BrittnyLee
    
    May 27, 2020 at 5:30 pm
    
    Thanks! 🙂
    
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  5. PoojaG
    
    May 27, 2020 at 10:00 pm
    
    You’re welcome!
    
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Julie Woss

May 27, 2020 at 2:14 am

Love the quotes! And of course south paw, ingenious!!!

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1. BrittnyLee
  
  May 27, 2020 at 2:40 am
  
  Thank you so much !!!! I still remember when you lectured my teachers for trying to make me use my right hand. Haha
  
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  1. Julie Woss
    
    May 27, 2020 at 3:25 am
    
    Right?????!! Was never going to happen, ha ha ha😂
    
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athousandbitsofpaper

May 28, 2020 at 10:30 pm

My son used to start writing with one hand and then swap to his other. It was quite amazing to watch. Like a dance. A teacher called it cross over syndrome and made him write with only one hand. Choose a hand she said and stick with it. Life isn’t like that though. I wished she hadn’t interfered and let him work it out himself – maybe I was wrong but I thought it great and unique and beautiful. We kill those things when we conform.

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1. BrittnyLee
  
  May 28, 2020 at 11:14 pm
  
  Right?! Aw poor kiddo . I’m sure the teacher was trying to help like mine was but still. I know how it feels. My mom tore into the teacher for trying to make me use my right hand haha. I remember it clearly. I was thinking to myself oh man, all this over a hand. Now I’m ambidextrous but I have more control writing with my left hand and can write quicker. Thanks for commenting. I am glad you shared this. It’s definitely a tough start for left handers.
  
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