I need you now and you’re nowhere to be found.
Volatile pieces of me laying on untethered ground.

The concrete is hot against my back and I’m letting it wake me.
I can’t make it anymore without a little guidance.

You’re unintentionally making me feel like a nuisance when you’re ghosting me. When you’re ghosting me, there’s so much I feel lousy about.
Your lack of interest is making me fret.

I’m so sick and tired of feeling fucking rejected and defective.

If I was brave enough, stupid enough, I could just let go of this metaphorical railing and fall until I don’t feel anymore.

I’m sick of the questions and the concerned looks, the judgments and the “you shoulds.”

You’re not in my head.

I might just need to vent.

If you can’t take the greasy heat of this conversation, get bent.

7 responses to “Bent”

  1. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    Sometimes there’s no way for something to curl softly…
    to nestle in the carpet without trying to swallow you…

    sometimes,
    the way things curl up
    is the way they fight,
    the way they twist…

    Sometimes,
    things just are…
    and you’re right there, seeing.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Beautiful john ā™” yes, that’s true.
      They bend and arch their spines until they’re no longer human.
      They’re creatures filled with some kind of emotion that only the devil can comprehend.
      To say I am frightened wouldn’t cover it, not nearly enough.

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  2. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    There are no “you shoulds” for where you are now.
    There will always be those who suggest different… but there are pieces of me coming apart in the echoes of “you shoulds” right now…
    and I dunno at this point if they’ll come together again.

    Everyone can be an expert in a situation they don’t have to stare in the eye.
    Trust your insights and your heart.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you John. šŸ™‚

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  3. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
    The Eclectic Contrarian

    I’d like to believe that you had some kind of closure or things restored between you and of whom this poem speaks of.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Yes. It took many years but yes šŸ™‚

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  4. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
    The Eclectic Contrarian

    Cool pic! Lol

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