I get over excited and I push you too hard.
I get over excited, laughing and crying, coming down from the rise harder on you than the last.

You don’t see it.
You’ve reached the most real part of me.

I didn’t mean to get over excited, overzealous as I could be, jumping on my bed, tossing precautions a backwards wave, weaving in and out of traffic, mind switching around.

I try to give you a glimpse into me.
It’s harder, you see to make others understand.
I don’t love when I hurt you, even if I love how I feel.
Sometimes, I forget you’re riding through these colorful storms with me, my hero, my love and friend.

I’m sorry for being over excited, letting the radical vibrancy and buoyancy of jumping thoughts,memories, worlds and invisible rainbows all overhead, taking over.

I want you to know, I mean it when I say I’m sorry I scared you.
You just don’t understand.
I don’t feel this without you.

28 responses to “Not My Tag Along, My Apology”

  1. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    You say it magnificently, Britt

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much !!!!

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  2. PoojaG Avatar
    PoojaG

    This is so well written! This is how I feel a lot because I feel like I feel things very strongly and I may end up hurting someone because of that.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Yes. I’ve been there. I’m glad this really resonates with you . ♡ thank you Pooja!

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      1. PoojaG Avatar
        PoojaG

        You’re very welcome!

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        🙂

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  3. House of Heart Avatar
    House of Heart

    Brittany, you have a real gift. Your writing is lovely.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much ♡ aww thank you !

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      1. House of Heart Avatar
        House of Heart

        You are so welcome!

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Have a great week!!! 🙂

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      3. House of Heart Avatar
        House of Heart

        You too Brittny! 🙂

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      4. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Thank you so much !!!! 🙂

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      5. House of Heart Avatar
        House of Heart

        😊

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  4. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
    The Eclectic Contrarian

    I think I scare people pretty well just being myself. It takes 2 abstract pieces to understand each other I guess. Or matching wavelengths.

    Hopefully this isn’t offensive. I’m not trying to be but apparently I have been before lol…

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      I don’t feel that you’re being offensive at all . 🙂 matching wavelengths are definitely a thing, especially with me. I have a hard time connecting with people. Writing helps me with that. It gives me time to think about what I want to say and how I want to. Social stuff is tricky. I work with kids who struggle socially so I learn skills by teaching skills to them too. It’s really wild 🙂 These kids make me feel proud of myself and mostly them. They’re so adaptive and brilliant. I didn’t mean to go off topic haha. I have adhd too so sometimes I go off track lol. You don’t scare me my friend. What’s your name ?

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      1. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I go off topic all the time lol!!! We can be talking about Snickers bars and the next thing we’ll be talking about Nessie… I don’t know if I’m just that good at conversation or I’m just rambling…

        That’s really awesome working with kids! Very rewarding! I really respect that!

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Thanks. Yes it definitely is ! Haha same for me too. I’m trying to view your blog and I can’t get to it. Are you set to private?

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      3. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        Yes ma’am. I’m really struggling with whether to keep it or not. I just deleted my poetry blog because nobody was paying any attention anymore. Which is awkward because so many people told me how great it was….

        My blog is a mix of poetry, thoughts, biblical stuff and assorted oddities. But if you really want to read it and decide you want to follow I’ll open it for you.

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      4. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Sure 🙂 I’d love to check it out. I may not be on daily but I would definitly like to check it out 🙂

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      5. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I opened it. There’s a lot of reading but you might find something of interest.

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      6. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        I’m sure I will 🙂 I will check it out as soon as I am done with working 🙂

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      7. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        Sorry to bother you.. I kind of blew your blog up binge reading….

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      8. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        That’s ok 🙂 I don’t mind !

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      9. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        As you probably already know, I’m a talker on here… lol. But if I ever get to be too much just say “John, shut up!” I promise I will!

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      10. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        No worries 🙂

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      11. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I normally don’t follow people until I see how interactive they’re going to be with me. I just don’t believe in following someone and never liking or commenting on their posts. I’m weird like that… but I guess I’ll take a chance with ya lol!

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      12. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Haha I know what you mean .

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      13. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I hope… I just feel so different… I guess everyone does really. But I’m not everyone

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