I’m finding trust again, in the eyes of others, true blue and forest green.

I’m breathing clean air, inhaling the air you durst to.

I’m rolling down grassy grounds with you, all of you.

I remember the first time air became tainted, choking me like smoke follows the flame.

I remember the first time the air stole away from me.

The world was turning under myself as I spun and took control.
I wielded my own orbit with spread open fingers and arm.
The wind struggled against my reign to slow me.
In the end, it only cooled me.

I found a park that was all wooden.
The trees, the kites, and the swings were too. When I fell, I felt that wood hard, and splintering.

I stole away fast as the air did from my lungs.

I abandoned the wooden framing, the splintering stinging, and the laughing children.

I found a grassy hill.

I lay on my belly, the grass was soft on my stinging knees.
I began to roll down the hill.
The grass blunted each bump, soothing each scrape.

Then, there was the glass.
The broken bottle hid hideously, ominously blending in .
It struck me with a stabbing jab in my knee.

Tears dotted my eyes.
Blood was staining my torn shorts.

I was told to keep playing, until my mom saw me.
She believed me, knew my cries, when no one else would.

You are like that.
You see the cuts, trust my eyes when I cry.

Looking back, the glass wasn’t the cause of my pain.
The lack of belief was what cut me deepest.

Trust is the key that drives the soul.

21 responses to “Rolling Down Grassy Hills”

  1. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    Trust really is special. Especially now.
    Seem to be losing it all over the place now, too. Sometimes it dissolves without you even seeing it was there.
    Beautifully told.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much 🙂 aww

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  2. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
    The Eclectic Contrarian

    Dream like!

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you !!!!! 🙂

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      1. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        You’re welcome!

        Awesome blog!

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Aw thank you so much 🙂

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      3. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        You’re welcome again lol!

        And thank you! It’s been a strange day on the blog lol…

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      4. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Strange how ??

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      5. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately. And people are strange. Had a person today who didn’t understand a comment I made and assumed I was being offensive. Wouldn’t even let me explain…

        I struggle enough socially and have been contemplating either keeping my blog or just getting off completely. Then there’s days like today…

        I’m sorry if I’m bothering you.

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      6. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        It’s ok you’re not at all. I understand that completely . I struggle socially too with expressing myself and sometimes not understanding things like when I talk too much or too little or certain comments haha. You’re not bothering me at all 🙂 no worries.

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      7. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        I’m usually talking way too much. I just don’t know when to end the conversation lol…

        I’m John by the way. Nice to meet you BrittnyLee!

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      8. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Likewise. Haha nice to meet you John!

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      9. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        🙂 I wish I knew what to say next lol!!! 🤦‍♂️ I’m really out of sorts today. That stupid situation really messed me up.

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      10. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        It happens no worries. Sorry you experienced that. Some people jist don’t take the time to understand what is being said. I definitely try not to jump to conclusions, especially with working with kids.

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      11. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        That’s exactly what this person did…. no thought. No understanding. Even said they weren’t going to try to make sense of it lol!! Gahhh people are so weird. I felt very normal…

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      12. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        They are though, honestly !!!!! I don’t even think sometimes that people are intending to be rude. I just don’t think they realize how they’re coming across

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      13. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        Well I don’t what this particular person was thinking/doing/whatever… but they flipped out quickly and I was just… wow lol

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      14. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        That’s not good. Hopefully they are mentally ok. I know everyone is stressed with covid and everything. They still shpuld try their best not to take it out on others though.

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      15. The Eclectic Contrarian Avatar
        The Eclectic Contrarian

        They’re just off… a wee bit

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      16. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Oh boy 😦

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      17. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        I don’t feel that you’re being offensive at all . 🙂 matching wavelengths are definitely a thing, especially with me. I have a hard time connecting with people. Writing helps me with that. It gives me time to think about what I want to say and how I want to. Social stuff is tricky. I work with kids who struggle socially so I learn skills by teaching skills to them too. It’s really wild 🙂 These kids make me feel proud of myself and mostly them. They’re so adaptive and brilliant. I didn’t mean to go off topic haha. I have adhd too so sometimes I go off track lol. You don’t scare me my friend. What’s your name ?

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