You keep surprising me. I keep finding more fragments of your soul and mine. We’re intertwined.

Our souls howl and clumsily clambor about unsteady stairs. Laboring and lumbering we’re lacking leisure and lusting luster; we leave out our unbridled devotion to succumbing to the light.

We can see it dripping into sight, like wax off of a burning candle. It drops through the cracks, the full dirty drapery darkening these cavern walls.

The white flag waves it’s promise of salvation like a beacon mightily as the wind sings. As we stumble over our labors of love, we see the beacon growing mightier, the flag growing larger. The traces of the dank and dirty dark are fading into lighter shades.

We are coming home at last.

35 responses to “Dark to Light”

  1. shayandas Avatar
    shayandas

    Outstanding write!!!! Loved it. Thanks for sharing

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much !!!! 🙂

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  2. Vivek Sharma Avatar
    Vivek Sharma

    Thanks for sharing such a good piece of writing

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much. I appreciate you stopping by and commenting 🙂 Vivek !

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  3. Journalofthegrey Avatar
    Journalofthegrey

    Seems hopeful! Hope you’re doing well.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Absolutely is . It’s honesty my friend . There’s freedom in that 🙂 thanks ! How are you doing ?

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      1. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        My social awkwardness has been brutal lately. I deleted all my blogs and I’ve been trying to avoid reading blogs because I don’t want to comment. Because I feel like nobody cares and I need to delete my account too. I feel more weird and annoying than anything. Some people say it’s just me. And some have agreed with me…

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Oh wow that’s harsh. People have agreed with you ?! That’s not nice. Don’t talk to those people. They’re toxic to your soul. Damn 😦 I care and I value you and your work and your voice . I have been feeling that weird feeling too so has my other friend John, incidentally. I’m finally starting to feel better . I’ve been sick since last Friday and missed 4 days of work. I haven’t been hardly able to get up to eat. It was not covid. I got tested. It was either bronchitis or pneumonia. I’m finally starting to feel better thankfully. I’m thanking God like crazy. Being off work and hardly able to do anything gave me a lot of time to think. I realized that I really need to let people in more, the people I love I mean you guys, my other close friends and family. I do let you all in but I still feel like I’m existing so much of my time in my head . It’s hard to explain but I do feel like an alien a lot of the time. It’s like you said like you feel too weird and too awkward. That’s how I feel too when I want to be close to so many but sometimes don’t know where to start and other days it comes so easily. I know you understand.

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      3. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        It just gets exhausting because I don’t know how to take people. And it shouldn’t matter I mean this is a blog and everyone is a complete stranger. But it does matter… I’m just too weird to be normal.

        It’s been like watching people who are liked and have friends prosper while you’re a shadow in the dark. But the people know you’re there… hopefully this makes sense.

        I hope you feel better!! I’ve had covid. Got over it a couple weeks ago. Sickness in general sucks 😕

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      4. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Oh no ! You had covid !!!?? I’m so sorry 😦 you ok now ??? It does suck. I’m starting to finally feel better but not perfect by any means. I’m just really grateful that heaviness on my right lung side is going away. That’s pneumonia if not taken care of. I refilled my script so I can be on the antibiotics a little longer to make sure that this dies. I have to go back to work Monday so I need to make sure this is gone . You’re not a shadow. You’re not a pariah. Real friends see you. I’m sorry that I don’t respond or am on as much. It’s been hard coping with my uncles’ passing so close together and my other uncle being sick too. There’s been a lot of family issues . I’m trying to be there for everyone while trying to also cope. It’s tricky but I’m working on a rhythm. You’re a great friend and I enjoy talking with you. I know it’s hard blocking out the negativity. I really have to work on it myself at times. A lot of the times it’s just me though getting into my own head too much. Sometimes, when I can’t get the other person’s perspective I make it up. That’s almost always not a good thing. I try anymore to just let it go . I really try. It’s not easy. I like to know what’s going. I want to fix everything but majority of the time, I just can’t. It’s really hard to do but I’m trying . I hope that helps in some way. Social stuff if always tough .

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      5. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        It was like having the flu but with a pesky fever. I was over it in about a week.

        I’m not talking about you. I’m thankful that you take the time to talk to me. I know all too well what it’s like to stay in my head. I over think. I over analyze and I think that leads to me talking too much and being weirder than normal. Some people will try to understand and some will get weirded out. I often feel like an introvert that tries too hard to extrovert. Life is really strange outside my shell. There’s some awesome people out there and then there’s some very strange people. There’s people I want to like me. I choose them for friends but the feeling isn’t mutual. I should move on and not care but it affects me.

        I definitely hope you feel better ASAP! Life needs to go back to normal and be boring. I’m sure we’re both tired of excitement lol.

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      6. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Yes🤣 very tired indeed of both excitement and monotony. It’s hard to stay entertained when I don’t let myself daydream. I wish I could get more out of everyday occurrences but I can’t . It’s too typical. I met this girl. Her name is Calley. She’s really reminded me of what I’ve been missing. I’ve been missing my imagination and my art and just fun. The only way I’m truly content is being halfway in my world and halfway in the outer world ( what I call the workplace and any time I’m with anyone who isn’t imaginative). I don’t meant it to out anyone down, at all. It’s just my weird kind of coping that worked so well for me when I was a teen and child. I talked about it with my uncle Bill who passed once. I think he understood what I meant or at least he didn’t judge . I’m always the happiest that way. It’s like God gave me imagination to use to help others lol by keeping me sane haha . No, I don’t mean that in self-importance values. I just think that thinking almost like a child helps with adult issues sometimes, especially the boring day to day crap that doesn’t fuel us to create or motivate us to do God’s work. I want to be a great Christian . I think I have to keep letting my roots help me on those days when I feel so bored and just stagnant. I know you weren’t talking about me 🙂 I just do feel bad about not getting on here as much . I really enjoying talking with the friends I have on here. Balancing time is tough especially when my brain is all over the place with reality and my spacing out into my imaginary world haha. The people that try to understand are the ones to keep friends with. You don’t deserve to be ignored or treated like crap.

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      7. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I think I understand what you’re saying… we have to live outside of our minds. But we like to go to that place in our minds where our imagination and creativity help us interpret and cope with the outside?

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      8. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Yeah ! Exactly !!!! 🙂 Mine I think goes a little too far sometimes but I don’t mind it. It makes me feel free. 🙂 We are all free in a sense or in many senses but it’s hard to explain. Sometimes, when I’m in my own world I am even away from myself ( my anxious self)- not the self I enjoy (my real self) haha I know I’m wacky

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      9. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        No you make perfect sense! I grew up alone. So we’re made to be social… I had imaginary friends that I kept long into adulthood. Because they became a part of me. In the world, I’m misunderstood and weird. I’m not liked. But in my own little world I have people who try. I have people who help. And my creativity and imagination help me both to interpret and understand the world around me. And through that, my art, photography and poetry I try to explain myself to the outside.

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      10. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Yeah, exactly !!!! Wild isn’t it ?? This is why I love you guys ! People are on here just get it, get me 🙂 It’s refreshing in comparison to working life and school ha. Artsy people need our artsy community. Everyone is weird and quirky in their own ways . I truly think artsy people are a whole different breed though haha 😂

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      11. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        We definitely are!! The abstract pieces that only fit into ourselves!

        Of course I feel much more abstract than others. I’ve just yet to find many who completely get me and even want to understand me.

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      12. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Rare group of people. I know the feeling . I’ve been fortunate meeting some of my best friends with a few amazing girls in college and highschool . I’m still good friends with them and the people on here. I think it takes years though to know who your true friends are . 🙂

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      13. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        Very true. I just feel so different. It doesn’t help when people basically agree with you.

        Thank you for talking to me! I feel like I’m talking too much. 🤦‍♂️

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      14. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Nah you’re good ! You’re not talking too much at all my friend !

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      15. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        Thank you for reading, BrittnyLee! That means a lot!

        And thank you for being an awesome friend!

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      16. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        You’re welcome ☺️

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      17. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I promise I’ll leave you alone. At least for a while!

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      18. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        I still have an imaginary friend, my Billow . But she’s all too real to me and my teddy bears haha 😆😂

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      19. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I don’t judge you! They help us understand the world around us. Because we need that help.

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      20. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        It’s true honestly it is !!! I know you don’t judge 🙂 I’m grateful for that ! I can’t even associate with people who are judgemental over quirks. I know you know what I mean 🙂

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      21. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        With everything I’ve been through and everything I’ve done, and all the quirks I have myself, there’s no way I could judge someone.

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      22. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I just reinstated my blog… I want to try again but I don’t know…..

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      23. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Try it ! Why not ? 🙂

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      24. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I’m scared of crashing and burning again.

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      25. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        Thanks to my aunt Maureen, hearing crash and burn makes me think of physics

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      26. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        Uh oh….

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      27. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        I’ve started to believe that there will be a cycle of well and then crash and burn and rebirth in most of our lives . Just from experience I mean 🙂

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      28. Journalofthegrey Avatar
        Journalofthegrey

        I don’t know why I’ve became such a sensitive puss lately… I’m sorry to bother you with all this.

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      29. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        You’re not a bother at all. 🙂 It’s a cycle. It’s a rough cycle and it’s hard to deal with when your brain likes to decide your feelings for you. It’s hard . You’re not alone 🙂

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