My thoughts might
will never be, consistent
with who I choose to be.
Feelings are making me sluggish.
I’m skittish, skirting every handshake.
Expect too much;
expect too little.
I’m on hyperdrive
or slower than the daily eight hours.
I’ve never sat in the middle,
never felt comfortable alone.
Comfortable.
I want to know what that truly means.
My mind antagonizes
every cell, my entire being.
Push on
and thrash the curtains open.
I don’t want to step out this door.
I’m throwing myself out there
to be torn right open.
I’ll do it again.
I’ll do the same thing tomorrow.
Dissociate.
Disconnect.
Recreate.
Assimilate.
I’ll do it again
all for your sake.
How could I let myself be
anyone than who I choose to be?
Forget all of my insecurities
because it’s coming sooner than we all think.
I’d do it again
and again if it meant
you could be healing.
12 responses to “Mood Doesn’t Matter”
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Crossroads are so tough ! I hope there comes a time when we don’t need to keep coming across these forks in the road. Thanks for commenting. I’m glad this meant something to you 😊. I think we are channeling. Things are well just mostly busy but I keep getting sick. It’s really exasperating!! Hope you are doing well and enjoying your spring best you can 🙂
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Sorry to hear that you’ve been sick a lot. I’ve been getting a bunch of headaches, which is probably related to the weather. We’re currently under a heat warning at the moment. And agreed, I’m hoping as we get older, there are less crossroads that we’ll encounter. Or that it’ll just become easier to decide what to do!
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Yes! Easier to know what to do would be a bonus for sure. I hope your headaches stop. The weather definitely has something to do with it on my end. Allergies are at an all time high this is year. Hope you feel better too 💖
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Thank you. That means a lot to me. I want my writing to envoke feelings in my readers. I want them to let whatever is bothering them out while reading it. It’s so important not to feel alone and to feel heard, especially these days . Thank you so much for your thoughts and visit 💞💞
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