Dawning Creations

It’s true.
Sometimes I’m living a double life,
when I fantasize.
Remember, I’m still learning to fall
in love with my life, again.

I’m still reaching towards the top
but from the bottom of the barrel.

But I don’t lie, anymore.
I don’t eventry to hide it, anymore.
My eyes used to betray me.
I couldn’t fake it
even though I thought I did.

I swear I’m not playing any games,
although sometimes I’m sure I seem deranged.

This double life is hard to makes it hard to compromise.

I’m unhinged but cognizant
But is this true blue
like I believe
or just another happy accident to be?

My eyes don’t betray me, anymore.

I have no one to blame, anymore.
It’s all on me,
in the end,
to challenge this sadness inside my head.
I’ll try and try
until the day that I’m dead.

Now, I never said it’ll be easy
In fact, it’s colder than the gates of hell.
But I’ll try and I’ll try.
I won’t give up and I
will live the rest of my life
with my feet planted here
and less of there.