“It’s everywhere. It’s on the tv, our phones, in our papers. We can’t stop it. We can’t be quiet. I can’t stop seeing it.”

For first time, you let me see the visuals screening in your mind, behind those vivid green eyes.

I was petrified, like those millennium old fossils and all the more in love with you.

I’ve felt those stinging tears, the cuts, the lingering chilling tingle of tracing the old scars.

I’ve felt those bullets too.

You thanked me and pulled me close to you.
You wanted to make me smile.
You wanted to revive the light in my eyes, while you were freezing stone cold from the inside out.

I couldn’t comprehend.
It came to me.
These words, unspoken, silent in the embrace.
I’m listening, ears open wide, taking you in.

Words.

Words wield a certain power.
They can present in listening, unspoken shaking, tears, holding hands.
They wield power in their presentation, lead you to a breakthrough or breakdown, a saving grace or a great let down.

Believe me when I tell you, I was scared too beyond the outer limits of the moon.

I couldn’t lose you.

You’re the light that blinds the rays from the sun and warms me up.
You’re that cup of coffee made just right.
I lean on you
to grow
to deal
to HEAL

Don’t go.

I know it hurts to feel, right now.
I don’t want to push you, give you your space but I’m so fucking scared to leave you alone right now.

Sit with your feelings and forgive me for my failures.
I just want to love you, see you love you like I do.

I know you don’t feel human.

You’re a work of art, all your lines,
dots on your skin, folds and heat and red in your cheeks.

You’re complete.

For the first time, you let me see the visuals screening in your mind.

About The Poem: Everything that is going on in the world is frightening. We are in times that are abnormal and demanding on every one of us. Remember when you’re angry, scared, you’re not alone. Support each other.

The quote I have at the beginning of this poem is something my fiance said to me last night, fighting back tears. He is a great man and cares deeply for the world and everyone in it. Hearing him confess these feelings, I felt strongly about posting something to help people who are feeling like we are. We all want justice and peace. We want connectedness. These times are scary. I’m trying to hold onto hope. I hope you can too. Prayers and love being sent to all of you reading this.

*I DO apologize for dropping the F bomb. I thought about taking it out but as it came to me, I decided to keep it in. Last night, my fiance was in a very bad state with all going on. I was worried for him as I had never seen him in such a state. People think in a panicked state when worried about someone they love or worrying about losing someone they love. I have had to make phone calls when loved ones tried to commit suicide. I take mental health seriously. I guess what I’m trying to say is people have a right to express their feelings, even if offensive to others. Art is art. Feelings are feelings. As long as you’re not hurting anyone, be you. Inspire and be genuine. I hope that this helps someone, even if it is only one person.

6 responses to “Visuals and Words”

  1. Woodsy Avatar
    Woodsy

    I loved it.

    I felt the heartbreak.
    I felt like curling up in some of the lines and phrases
    that conjure a place I have been in myself…

    or a place I yearn for,
    where somebody else is sitting on the other side of that despair,
    drawing me into a hug that might yet change everything –

    if only for the pain in two hearts.

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much John. I will be here for you and any one else I can be, especially now. These are scary times and we need to be here for each other as human beings. I’m grateful for this platform to create and reach out to people and enjoy them reaching back. I feel a little anxious about posting such heavy posts lately but I feel the world is hurting and I want them to know it’s ok. It’s ok to be hurting and to be present in your feelings, no matter what. 🙂 I’m really happy you felt the emotion in this piece. I’m so grateful!

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  2. PoojaG Avatar
    PoojaG

    This was so beautiful and emotional!

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    1. BrittnyLee Avatar
      BrittnyLee

      Thank you so much. This was a very personal one. With everything going on, I felt people might be feeling the same. 🙂 Thank you Pooja!

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      1. PoojaG Avatar
        PoojaG

        You’re welcome and yes I’m sure a lot of people can relate.

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      2. BrittnyLee Avatar
        BrittnyLee

        🙂

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