Dawning Creations

I dont want to talk right now
I just want to be

You can’t help but drag me out
when really all I want is sleep

I’m not the same everyday,
I wear a different face
Sometimes, I even will
to carry another name.

It’s not the same
as it is for you.
You’re constant in your
unbalancing, emotional tricking or treating.

I wasn’t the same.
I wore a different face.
For a while,
with every day that passed,
I seldom knew my place.
It’s not all bad.
I collected a higher perspective,
branched out and showed respect
and admitted that I’ve relented.

I don’t resent you.
But, I don’t comprehend you.
Sometimes, I want you near.
Other times, you’re too much, here.
It’s all the same,
in your lack of showing shame.
Brazen in your disregard,
for my skyward aim.
You’re always the same.
You’re lacking in any shame,
as you insideously sneak in.
You try to bind me in your slimey chain,
pressing all the buttons in my brain,
driving live wires to burst in flames.

I have knowledge on my side.
All you own are mismatched chemicals,
firing at random,
imbalacing my equilibrium,
seeking to halt the flow of my system,
harboring unnecessary guilt
in my artistic chasm.
You’re a tidal wave rising and receeding.
But, I won’t let you conquer.
My ship is settled in your
rippling harbor.
I’ll hold you close enough to see you,
and far enough to keep you
from decimating all of me,
all of my hard earned values and beliefs.
You won’t take from me,
all the experiences of becoming
what WE made ME.